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UYobhi Uphendula Esezaleni

UYobhi uthi ukuba usizi lwakhe belunokulinganiswa, belunokuba nzima ngaphezu kwentlabathi yeelwandle, nokuba iintolo zikaSomandla ziphakathi kwakhe. Unqwenela ukuba uThixo awugqibezele lo msebenzi. Okubi ngakumbi, abahlobo bakhe bayamphoxa njengemilanjana yasentlango eyoma xa kufika abahambi abanxaniweyo.

Isahluko 6.

Waphendula ke uYobhi wathi: “Akwaba usizi lwam lulinganiselwa, nentlungu yam yonke ibekwa kunye esikalini! Belisaya kuba nzima ngaphezu kwentlabathi yeelwandle—kungoko amazwi am abe yelisela. Kuba iintolo zikaSomandla ziphakathi kwam; umoya wam uyasela ubuhlungu bazo; iinkxwaleko zikaThixo zindimisele uluhlu. Ngaba iesile lasendle liyakhala utyani balo, nenkomo iyabhonga ukudla kwayo? Ngaba ukudla okungenancasa kudliwa kungenatyuwa, ngaba kukho ncasa encindini yomhlonyane? a a v6 Umhlonyane sisityalo sasendle; incindi yawo enamanzi ibidumile ingakhange ivuselele nkanuko—umfanekiso wokudla okungenasondlo nakufuneka. Umphefumlo wam uyala ukukuchukumisa; izinto ezinjalo zikukudla okulunyekayo kum. Owu, akwaba isicelo sam besinganikwa, uThixo andinike into endiyilangazelelayo, ukuba uThixo ebengavuma ukundityumza, asivulele isandla sakhe andinqumle! Oku bekusaya kuba yintuthuzelo yam— bendiya kutsiba ngemihlali kwaneentlungwini ezingenanceba—ukuba andiwakhanyelanga amazwi aLowo uyiNgcwele. Ndinawaphi amandla, ukuze ndihlale ndilindele? Sisiphi isiphelo esindilindileyo, ukuze ndibe nomonde? Ngaba amandla am ngamandla amatye? Ngaba inyama yam yenziwe ngobhedu? Ngaba akukho ncedo nokuba luncinane ngaphakathi kwam, ngoku ubulumko obuluqilima bugxothiwe kum? Nabani na ongamniki nceba umhlobo wakhe ushiya uloyiko lukaSomandla. Kodwa abazalwana bam banobuqhetseba njengomlanjana wasentlango, njengemisele yemilambo ephuphumayo iza yome, emnyama ngomkhenkce onyibilikayo, ezele likhephu elifihlakeleyo, kodwa ngexesha elomileyo iyanyamalala; xa kufika ubushushu, iyaphela ndaweni yayo. Iindwendwe zabahambi ziyaphambuka ezindleleni zazo; zinyuka enkangala zibhubhe. Iindwendwe zabahambi zaseTema zifuna amanzi; abahambi baseShebha bawathembile. Bayadana ngenxa yokuba bebekholose; bafika kuloo ndawo badane. Nani ke ngoku senibe yinto engento; niyabona into eyoyikekayo noyike. Ndakha ndathi na, ‘Ndiphe into’? Okanye, ‘Ndinikeni isicengo kubutyebi benu’? Okanye, ‘Ndihlanguleni esandleni sotshaba’? Okanye, ‘Ndikhululeni esandleni sabakhohlakeleyo’? Ndifundiseni, ndithi tu; ndiboniseni apho ndone khona. Hayi, indlela abuhlungu ngayo amazwi anyanisileyo! Kodwa singqina ntoni na kanye ukukhalimela kwenu? Ngaba nithetha ukohlwaya amazwi nje, nithabatha intetho yendoda ethe phithi njengomoya? Ningade niwisele amaqashiso phezu kwenkedama, nithengise umhlobo wenu. Ke ngoku, khanindikhangele— andiyi kuxoka ebusweni benu. Buyani, ndiyanicela; makungabikho bugqwetha. Buyani—ubulungisa bam busamile. Ngaba bukho na ubugqwetha elwimini lwam? Ngaba umlomo wam awunakukwazi na okutshabalalisayo?”