Masiku Anga Ali ngati Mpweya Chabe

Yobu akuyerekeza moyo wake ndi ntchito ya kapolo ndi kuyembekezera malipiro kwa wantchito wolembedwa: usiku wotembenukatembenuka, khungu likusweka. Sadzakhala chete. Akutembenuza salimo kukhala lowawa, akufunsa chifukwa chake Mulungu amayang'anitsitsa munthu chotere, ndi kumupempha kuti ayang'ane kumbali.

Chaputala 7.

“Kodi anthu alibe ntchito yolemetsa pa dziko lapansi, ndipo masiku awo kodi sali ngati a munthu waganyu? Ngati kapolo wolakalaka mthunzi, ndi ngati munthu waganyu woyembekezera malipiro ake, momwemonso ine ndapatsidwa miyezi yachabe, ndipo usiku wamavuto waperekedwa kwa ine. Pamene ndagona ndimati, 'Kodi ndidzadzuka liti?' Koma usiku umatalika, ndipo ndimagubuduka mpaka kucha. Thupi langa lavala mphutsi ndi zidutswa za dothi; khungu langa limauma, kenaka limang'ambikanso. Masiku anga ndi aliwiro kuposa chowombera cha woluka, ndipo amatha popanda chiyembekezo. Kumbukirani kuti moyo wanga uli ngati mpweya chabe; sindidzaonanso chinthu chabwino. Diso limene likundiona tsopano silidzandionanso; maso anu adzakhala pa ine, ndipo ine sindidzakhalaponso. Monga mtambo umatha ndi kuzimirira, momwemo amene watsikira kumanda satulukanso; Iye sabwereranso kunyumba kwake, ndipo malo ake sadzamudziwanso.

“Chotero sindidzasunga pakamwa panga chete; ndidzayankhula mu chisoni cha mzimu wanga, ndidzadandaula mu kuwawa kwa moyo wanga. Kodi ine ndine nyanja, kapena chirombo cha m'nyanja, kuti mundiyikire mlonda? Pamene ndinena kuti, 'Bedi langa lidzanditonthoza, mphasa yanga idzachepetsa madandaulo anga,' pamenepo mumandiopsa ndi maloto ndi kundichititsa mantha ndi masomphenya, kotero kuti ndikanasankha kudzikola ndi imfa kuposa thupi langa ili. Ine ndikuonda; sindidzakhala ndi moyo kwamuyaya. Ndisiyeni ndekha, pakuti masiku anga ali ngati mpweya chabe.

“Kodi munthu ndi chiyani, kuti mumamukuza chotere, ndi kuti mumayika mtima wanu pa iye, kuti mumamuchezera m'mawa uliwonse ndi kumuyesa nthawi iliyonse? Kodi mpaka liti pamene mudzasiya kundiyang'ana ine, ndi kundisiya ndekha kwakanthawi kokwanira kumeza malovu anga? Ngati ndachimwa, kodi ndachita chiyani kwa Inu, Mlonda wa anthu? Chifukwa chiyani mwandisandutsa chandamale chanu, kotero kuti ndakhala mtolo kwa ine ndekha? Chifukwa chiyani simukhululukira tchimo langa ndi kuchotsa kulakwa kwanga? Pakuti posachedwa ndidzagona mu fumbi; mudzandifunafuna, koma ine sindidzakhalapo.”